emotional imprint

my brain did not fall for you

it took seven months to get to this

start of being restless

and awake with my weekend limerence.

i really wanted to become part 

of your personal space.

that will make me burn and perish,

but contented and cherished.

i love the way you see me as important,

i do not even know me anymore.

i even feel i do not deserve

this kind, warm and respectful treatment.

damn i like you a lot!

i never though at this very moment of tragedies,

of promises and being trapped in downhill spiral,

someone too good to be true

will be a savior.

damn i like you a lot!

but it would be best to shut my lips.

damn i wanted to kiss your lips!

and be wrapped around your slender limbs.

damn i like you more.

more than your manly gestures, more than your big smile.

more than your mysterious attitude

and more...

more than all the things i know nothing of.

and apologies if i fall.

because you let me.

even if i am alone on this situation.

i am happy.

so yes, i am happy to be wrapped alone.

happy with how these feels.

seeing you makes everything clear

and warm

and respectful

and beautiful. (you are so beautiful GSGC). 

petrushkababushka

hindi naman sinasadya.

sadya lang mapaglaro ang tadhana.

nung una kang makita kibit balikat lang.

may kahalong excitement pero ganun na nga lang.

wala naman pakialam, dahil nakatuon ako sa lahat ng sakit. 

pero bakit ganun?

nagbago na lang bigla.

hanggang sa nais ko na lang titigan ka. 

at makahalubilo sa mga panaginip?

teka hindi ka pa nagpapakita sa panaginip ko.

ngunit tuwing gising 

ikaw palagi nasa isip.

alam kong mali.

at wala din akong alam tungkol sa iyo.

misteryoso

sobrang pleasant.

parang hindi makakatotohanan?

or ngayon lang ako nakaranas?

na inaalagaan? (inaalala lang tanga!)

gusto ko lang makita ka. 

makita mga ngiti mo.

marinig ang boses mo.

mag hintay sa mensahe mo.

tanungin kumusta ang araw mo?

pero siyempre hindi ko ipapahalata. 

ngunit ang mga kabog ng dibdib ay hindi maikakaila.

palaging tulala

sa halip na unahin ang mga responsibilidad.

sana makita ka muli.

makausap muli.

matanong ka muli.

at makilala ka pa ng mas malalim.