Tuesday, July 21, 2026

good sheet

ipinasilip mo na rin sa wakas ang iyong mundo.

at mukhang maraming pagkakatulad tayo.

kung noon gusto lang kita makilala nang lubusan,

ngayon ay unti unti ko na nararamdaman,

na nais mo din alamin, silipin, tahakin,

ipagpatuloy ang istorya natin. 


ngunit sa pagkakataong hindi tama,

alam ko na may pagpipigil.

may mga emosyon na dapat itigil.

dahil maraming hadlang 

sa sana'y pag-iisa natin.


gayunpaman masaya ako para sa'yo.

walang halong biro, walang halong eme.

gusto ko na maranasan mo ang mahalin at alagaan.

kahit maiwan ako ditong nasasaktan.


napakaganda mo pa rin sa aking paningin.

napakahusay, intelektuwal, nakakatawa,

sigurado sa sarili at mapagtiwala.

nakikilala kita sa lahat ng anggulo. 

saan mo ba nabili 'yang gayuma mo?


whilst me singing, "He giving me that good sh!t, that make me not quit, that good sh!t."




Thursday, May 7, 2026

Divine Counterpart

You said you are a bad person trying to be kind
You told me to watch out for wolves
In sheep's clothing. 
You told me anything that 
Does not improve shall perish. 
And Jesus preached to always be selfless.

You told me I can be swayed easily
Easily manipulated and encouraged
You told me I have a heart and patience
And I tend to understand and see
The good things in others.

You advised to not let people step on me.
You trust I can stand on my own
You realize my brain has some complexity.
And you still believe.

Every time I talk to you.
My heart's always enamored by your ideas
And in every way I watch things you do
I feel like my soul is under seance.

I miss you every day and I know.
You will catch me, I will not chase
You are attracted and pulled in.
Because I know you are mine. 
You are my great divine.

I am your lost twin flame.
And I am so happy that the universe
Allowed us to meet once again. 
In this lifetime.

You are the most beautiful human being I have ever met. 






Thursday, April 30, 2026

Wild Rose

That one early summer

You mentioned and whispered

You are about to leave me hanging

Ready to let go of all of the love we shared.


I was caught off guard

I cannot speak a word

Tears just went flowing

More than I can afford.


Like a wild rose

I was left in the meadows

All by myself

Just waiting for the sunlight

And the rain to keep me alive.


Like a wild rose

I was blown away by the wind

Was threatened by the lightning

But I still manage to survive.


Like a wild rose

I know I am strong

You told me I am

I believe in you.


I know you are in a safe place now.

I feel you are longing for me.

I see, I dream of you somehow.

It aches to set you free. 


I wish this is not goodbye

I believe we can get back together in time.

I love you despite all my cries.

I will bloom for you

Until all the other flowers wither and die.













Wednesday, April 29, 2026

kimika

Hindi kakalimutan,

Aalalahanin ka araw araw.

Ang iyong pangalan

Na isa sa isang milyon

Lamang sa mundong ibabaw.


Sa paglisan mo nawa'y 

Maalala mo pa rin ako.

Mapatawad.

Mapangiti ka.

Kahit sandali

Naramdaman mo rin naman.


Yung kimika.

Yung tensyon

Yung musika

Yung reaksyon.

Yung lambing.

Yung init.

Yung tuwa.

Yung galit.

Yung luha. 


Lahat ng bersyon ng iyong pagkatao.

Naipakita mo nang walang halong kasinungalingan.

Lahat ng iyong kahinaan ay hindi mo ikinahiyang ipangalantaran.

Sobrang gusto kita.

Hahantong na yata sa pagmamahal.

Ngunit ngayon na lilisan ka na.

Ang masasabi ko lang ay mabigat na pasasalamat. 


Mag ingat ka palagi. 

Napakaganda mo sa aking paningin. 









Tuesday, April 14, 2026

the leader with a staff crossed the moon over the sky

I kind of miss you.

I kind of miss how you make me feel.

I kind of like your name.

The leader with a staff crossed the moon over the sky.


I kind of hate you.

I despise what you have said. 

My heart is loathing with hatred.

But loving to choose violence.


The leader with a staff crossed the moon over the sky.

And gave me happiness.

The leader with a staff crossed the moon over the sky.

All what is left is sadness.


I can't see clearly.
But I still find you beautiful. 


Thursday, April 9, 2026

red alert

nasaan na ang dating maamong pusa na nag memeow meow

sa tabi ko habang binibigyan ko ng fancy feast?

bigla na lang naging isang matapang na leon

may simbolo  pa sa noo na mark of the beast.


grabe mga plot twist

mga over the edge na scenario

hindi ko aakalain hahantong sa ganito

na ang maamong pusa pa pala

ang kakalmot sa iyo? 


mataas pa rin

sobrang taas

hindi ko maarok.

hindi ko maipaliwanag

hindi ko maintindihan

gusto ko intindihin

ang gulo gulo mo

wala na akong paglagyan

nakakalunod mong ego. 


luh? parang ayoko na?

luh? pero gusto ko pa?

luh? ni hindi ka marunong humingi ng pasensya?

sa lahat ng ginawa mong pambabara?


kaya bukas hindi na kita kakausapin.

wala nang paghihintay na magaganap.

wala na ang mga pull.

wala na ang mga sweet gestures.

sisikapin kong maging neutral

deadma na sa mixed signals. 


back to reality, no expectations

matapos lahat ng revelations

na ang maamong pusa noon

na naging isang mabangis na leon

ay may hawak na isang matingkad na red flag. 





 

Monday, January 19, 2026

emotional imprint

my brain did not fall for you
it took seven months to get to this
it's the start of being restless
and awake with my weekend limerence.

i really wanted to become part 
of your personal space.
that will make me burn and perish,
but contented and cherished.

i love the way you see me as important,
i do not even know me anymore.
i even feel i do not deserve
this kind, warm and respectful treatment.

damn i like you a lot!
i never thought at this very moment of tragedies,
of promises and being trapped in downhill spiral,
someone too good to be true
will be a savior.

damn i like you a lot!
but it would be best to shut my mouth.
damn i wanted to kiss your lips!
and be wrapped around your slender limbs.

damn i like you more.
more than your manly gestures, more than your big smile.
more than your mysterious attitude
and more...
more than all the things i know nothing of.

and apologies if i fall.
because you let me.
even if i am alone on this situation.
i am happy.

so yes, i am happy to be wrapped alone.
happy with how these feels.
seeing you makes everything clear
and warm
and gracious
and beautiful.
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL.







babush

hindi naman sinasadya.

sadya lang mapaglaro ang tadhana.

nung una kang makita kibit balikat lang.

may kahalong excitement pero ganun na nga lang.


wala naman pakialam, dahil nakatuon ako sa lahat ng sakit. 

pero bakit ganun?

nagbago na lang bigla.

hanggang sa nais ko na lang titigan ka. 


at makahalubilo sa mga panaginip?

teka hindi ka pa nagpapakita sa panaginip ko.

ngunit tuwing gising 

ikaw palagi nasa isip.


alam kong mali.

at wala din akong alam tungkol sa iyo.

misteryoso

sobrang pleasant.

parang hindi makakatotohanan?

or ngayon lang ako nakaranas?

na inaalagaan? (inaalala lang tanga!)


gusto ko lang makita ka. 

makita mga ngiti mo.

marinig ang boses mo.

mag hintay sa mensahe mo.

tanungin kumusta ang araw mo?



pero siyempre hindi ko ipapahalata. 

ngunit ang mga kabog ng dibdib ay hindi maikakaila.

palaging tulala

sa halip na unahin ang mga responsibilidad.


sana makita ka muli.

makausap muli.

matanong ka muli.

at makilala ka pa ng mas malalim. 


Sunday, November 10, 2013

wrath of yolanda

Ubos na ang laman ng bank account
Ang paborito kong cookies ubos na rin
Masakit na ang kamay sa paghawak sa touch pad
 [At ang kantang ‘Love is Easy’ ay pawang kasinungalingan
Lang, na dalawang araw ko nang LSS]
Dahil ang palagi kong tanong
Ay tanong pa rin hanggang ngayon.
Magaling pa sa magaling
Naging matalino ka na rin
Pero matalino man ang matsing
Mas may diskarte ang kuting
Kaya naman ang open question,
Ay somewhat nagkaroon ng meaning.
Parang sampal na hindi inaasahan
Napagtantong bakit palaging ako?
Wala naman akong ginawang masama sa iyo…


Sunday, August 18, 2013

kape

kape kape kape
madilaw na ang ipin sa kape
umaga tanghali gabe
hot, cold, iced or frappe
o kahit pa kapeng tsokolate
pati bath scrub ay kape
paboritong kulay ay kape
gusto ko lang magising
gustoko lang magising.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

jpoem

naglalakad sa ulap, naglalakad sa ulap.
ngiti ay hanggang tenga
kung suntok man sa buwan na maituturing
bakit naman sa sa tuwing mata's ipinipikit
hinuha mo ang siyang nakikita
nakangiti rin at handa na...
ang hirap umasa
ang hirap mangarap
gayung ilang araw na lang ang nalalabi
ganitong kapiling ka
malay mo naman?
kung ilang beses na akong nagkamali.
baka sa ngayon
ikaw na.

nahuhulog. nahuhulog.
ang puso kong walang kadala dala.
na masaktang muli?
o sadyang ipinanganak ako para masaktan?
sa palagay ko naman.
atsaka hindi naman sinasadya.
kwasa ba naman ih gay-un?
ikaw naman kase...
bakit naman kase nakilala mo pa ako.
seryoso.
isang wallflower na bumubungisngis lang
sa isang tabi.
ngayon ay isang mansanas sa iyong paningin
na binibigyan ng pansin
mga tanong na walang malisya
mukhang may malisya?
feeling ko lang naman
ayaw tuloy kitang iwanan.
o ganyan ka lang talaga?
pero bakit?
huwag mo akong puyatin
sa magdamagang wishful thinking...

Saturday, April 6, 2013

tanga lang


hindi na mawari ang mararamdaman
tuod na bang maituturing?
o tanga lang sa iyong paningin.
na mailang ulit nang sinaktan
pinagtabuyan, tinapak-tapakan, hinamak.
pagkatapos muling bumabalik
sapagkat hindi takot magtiwala.
at hindi nawalan ng pag-asa
sa paniniwalang 'mabuti na lang at hindi tayo sumuko'
ngunit paano kung mayroon nang limitasyon?
at hangganan ang lahat?
magagawa pa rin bang ipaglaban?
gayung ibinigay mo na ang nararapat?
pagod na...
siguro hindi talaga maaaring ipagpilitan
ang isang bagay na hindi naman
talaga nakatadhana para sa isa't isa.

-tanga lang 


Thursday, October 11, 2012

pseudologia fantastica


still the same you
living in your own illusion
living in your false dreams
like everything is real

still the same you
with tall tales about adventures
with stories of exagerrations
topped with parmessan cheese
and extra virgin olive oil...

[why should i care?]
maybe because your pretentions
hurt the people around you
or get hooked on your lies
and be eaten alive.

i shall leave you alone
because writing this
just tends to make me end up like
a loser
so i shall cut my ties
go to sleep
erase all the alibies
and nevermind
your pathological lies.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

verbally abused


kailan ka ba pinigilan
makipag-inuman sa mga friends mu?
nagtampo lang nang minsan,
bigla na lang sinigaw sigawan aku.

wala naman ako kasalanan

sana man lang hindi mapako,
ang mga ipinangako
kapag lango na sa alak at sigarilyo.

verbally abused.
ako ay verbally abused.

akala ko dati ako lang
ang may karapatang manigaw
dahil ang babae ay karaniwang nagger daw.

pero bakit ako ngayon ang verbally abused?
dahil ba nahawahan dahil nahalikan?
ipagwalang bahala muna ang kahihinatnan.

dahil ayaw ko na maging verbally abused
uuwe na lang ako sa amin
makikipaglaro sa aking pusa
mag-isa.

lalalalalala

at magbibingi-bingihan na lang ako.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

poems of july


magic spell

just two arms length apart
and falling
and melting
and loosing my strength
just to reach you

you are bonded
under a magic spell
of a materialistic
and sultry s***

and i won't interfere

just keeping it to myself
though i feel

that even when
we're two arms length apart
you wanted to fall
you wanted to melt
you wanted to loose
your strength

just to reach me

but i am bonded, too
under a magic spell...

guthrie

your skin covered with colours of shades of brown and nude
bare symphony of sadness filled with hate and regrets
voice full of emotion and authenticity
all life spent not knowing you...

searched all over just to face bad news
not the worst experience for eversince
i always have the tendency of falling
on people from down under
while belgian chocolate is frosting...

now i am starting to know you better
everyday, as the melodies keep on circling in my head
like a rat circling on its wheel, neverending
it could be exhausting.

after all, i am beguiled and restless maybe.
loving the crooked teeth, my mighty guthrie.

musha

i may always say it
but i guess i never say it right
and i thought you might like
to hear it this way.

you might find Me a joke
of being too emotional
but it seems like you are more
emotional than i am.

i ain't going nowhere...

build my life around you.

not going to hurt you again

because it'll hurt me more.

forgive all the tragedies of the past.

forgive me.

never in my life i expected

too much, like this.
the love you give.

superficial but true.

why am i so blessed?

maybe i was a saint in my past life.

because God has given me someone so special.

someone so sweet,
so caring,
so funny,
so romantic,
so cute,
so smart,
so carefree,
so dark and sexy

like a chocolate wrapped in a gold foil, sealed, sent into my address.

and when i opened it, it was you.

with a note saying 'iloveyou =)'